I have to say... I've never been what'd you'd call a very happy person, I've spent most of my life trapped in a deep depression. I've tried getting help but everyone either brushes me off saying I have to help myself first or tries to medicate me I've tried the meds and they help but it's barely enough to keep me normal. The happiest I've ever been is working on my podcast and I've dedicated myself to it. But it seems most people don't feel that way about it and the people that do can't help me with it. I don't want to keep on living this way. Even my best friend has abandoned me. what do I do now?
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
wow...that sucks see i really do want to be apart of what your doing because i think you have a great idea on your hand its really awesome that you want to do something like this......and the meds part i know what you mean really though i dont think they worl that well either but if you put your heart and mind into somehing you believe in then you can be happy ......and now i am just rambling on and on so in all I just wish i knew what to say i guess........ugh i am no help.......
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i will be me and you be you and then maybe we will have hope for each other
as I said in another spot my entire crew is gone... I'm trying my best but I can't do it alone
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Aki quit because she didn't have time. Kio is having trouble at home. Mal is hanging by a thread. I'm not sure how else to do this
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well how about this you wait a couple of weeks you can busy your self with looking up ways to make the website better make up a solid crew think of ways to make the sound work..... thats all i can think of right now bud....but hey im here and im sure their are many more who are here for you so dont give up okay bud..dont lose hope
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I'm not one to give up aki thought me better than that. I'm going to keep searching even if it takes the rest of my pitiful life. which if I don't get on the treadmil might be pretty short.
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not by a long shot while shoujo-ai is a great topic and one we will cover semi regularly it's not what we're all about. we also cover video game news/ machinima releases/ anime / webcomics /other.
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Well it's turning into a real battle with all the stuff I need to do.
1. Fix Podcast 2. Take Math Test 3. Talk to friend about finding girlfriend 4. Smooth things out with friend who I confessed to 5. Watch all those anime 6. Play thru my backlog of videogames 7. Fix Podcast website 8. Homework 9. Start Exersiseing 10. Read latest dave barry book 11. Find Job
and thats just the tip of the iceberg
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eh my top priority is getting the podcast made the rest of that list can rot as far as I'm concerned
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Well I'll find someone who'll join me on the podcast even if it's the last thing I do
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If one of us has a game we're talkin about that the others don't have then that person(s) can ask questions and make jokes. it's never about who gets to talk more. It's about having fun and putting out a quality cast. and not letting the fun get too much in the way
as to your question about the scedule I can't say until we make one. I'm pretty open I'll ask mal tho
-- Edited by Doc at 21:57, 2008-02-07
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Thanks Sora I'll need your IM and skype adresses then so we can keep in touch
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I'm back to square one Unfortuantely, I can't find people with the time or energy to do a podcast so I'm left with two options keep trying or give up I don't need to tell you how bad either option is
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3rd option: postpone/hiatus it temporarily until you find willing co-...co...uhh, c-coworkers seems closest to the word I was thinking of. but I can't remember it. Anyways!, uhh, do you think that might be an workable option?
Also, as for the medications...I know it can't nearly speak for every case, but my family bloodline has a history of clinical depression, my mom and sister included. I got out of mine without medication (I refused to take it despite my mom's urging), and my mom and sister both needed to take anti-depressants. Unintentionally long story short, depression can greatly stem from or be signifigantly worsened by a chemical imbalance in the brain. Anti-depressants are generally to target this imbalance and correct it, at least slightly. (Other anti-depressants include anti-anxiety medication other categories)
So, even if they don't seem to help much, they may yet still help, so don't discount them right off the bat. 'barely normal' is better than depressed, methinks. (also, I wonder if there's a such thing as a 'reverse placebo effect' where you're actually getting treatment, but your lack of belief that it's doing anything reduces its effectiveness? Anyone know about this?)
If you're being told by psychiatrists and/or counselors that you have to help yourself first, and they're talking about helping yourself out of depression, you're talking to the wrong psychiatrists and/or counselors. Not all psych./couns. are the same, not all will believe the same things, not all will react the same way, and, finally, not all can help you with what you need. If you can, keep looking and try to find someone who can really help you.
My personal pull out of depression isn't really something easily repeatable (involves a Canadian pessimist, an online game, and a mutual breakup), so I really can't help you there...But if you ever wanna talk I suppose I could be an ear~
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NEW! I also have a blog, you're invited to check it out, or request a topic you'd like me to cover.
I wish I could get it done but I need to find someone who can work during the week with the dedication to do it every week... you can understand my frustration at trying to find someone like this
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I really suggest you should take one step at a time. Due to the lack of a staff, maybe instead of doing one every week, why not just start by doing once a month? If later, you can get someone to help out, you can make it every 2 weeks and then prehaps one day, you can do it weekly.
Everything takes time. You just need to be a bit patient and work with what you have. :) What matters is that you stick to your goal. :D
The problem isn't getting the podcast done once a week it's that we need to work on it every week. and without a another person we can't even start
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
I heard some podcasts with only one person. If you are willing, maybe you can start on your own first unless you really want to make it as a more than one person podcast right off the bat.
I did this podcast specifically because I thought I wouldn't have to go it alone...
I'm not sure what to do now I sacraficed so much for this...
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There are like gazillions people out there... I'm sure you can find people to help you with your podcast. Keep up the spirit. :D
I suck at talking so I can't help you... I use vent and my mic a lot but that's only when I play MMORPG. =/ It doesn't require me to speak proper English. Lol.