Hey, hey, calm down, Ams, take a few deep breaths, and tell us here on the forums anything. What's done is done, we have to make the most of it, okay? I'm not really sure what your current state is, but I'll try so offer what I can. So grab something sweet or munchy and try to smile, okay? You'll feel better.

Some things you should really do is get a friend or two to keep near you a lot of the time, to bolster your emotions and just generally support you. The feeling of being alone in this situation is one you should avoid as a high priority. And, chances are your friends will be calmer than you, so can probably say things you want to but can't seem to get unstuck from your throat.

Family may not react well, but they might surprise you, also. If you can, try asking (if you need to, use a friend) your mom to tell as few people as she can, limiting it to the ones she feels she needs to talk to to get her bearings on the situation. I.e., ask her not to tell people if it isn't crucial-somebody's-gonna-die dire. You might want to add that you haven't changed, only her perception of you has, and that you're still her daughter. Ask her to figure out how shee feels about it before telling most people. This may take time--a week or two, even. Though a month is somewhat longer than is reasonable. But give her some time, and ask of her the same.

Also, tell your mom that how she appears to feel about it will commonly affect people she is telling at the time. If she is calm, and acts like it is no big deal, most people will be similarly calm (unless they have signifigant predisposition against 'being gay', which many people may, but many more do not). If she acts like it is a horrible thing, chances are this will be transferred with the information to the listener.

Keep friends about, ask your mom not to call every person in the family, give eachother time, and answer eachothers' questions.

Really hope you're feeling better soon!
-LT