Well, this is kind of a rant, but kind of not. Sorry if it sounds more rant-y then I intend. I haven't really gotten to talk about this yet to people who I trust, so yeah.
Anyways, so rewind a while before Junior Prom (Which was this past friday, 9th of April). I personally find school prom a materialistic pile of crap, and refuse to go. My mom, somewhat jokingly (Knowing my opinion on the whole ordeal) says that I should go and "Maybe you'll meet some guys you'll like!" I let it pass, and move along.
Just last night my mom calls me on the phone to tell me she's coming home from my Sis's church thing in about 15 minutes, and asks me if I want to do Vacation Bible School (VBS). While I've been doing VBS at our old church (Long story, we changed curches recently due to an issue at our old one), my mom begins to tell me how She'll be the crew leader and me and my sister helpers. Like, god no. Hearing her tell me that basically made it an auto-"no way in hell", though I wouldn't tell her until later. I reply on the phone with "I'll think about it", and she follows up with a "You'll meet gu-kids your age!" At that second, it was just... gragh. I don't even know how to word it. That totally sealed the deal on my "No way in hell" decision. Like, why would I want to go, be an assistant with my mom and sister, and not only that, but she'll probably be like "Oh that boys cute, why don't you talk to him?"
Goddamnit Mom, stop it. Not only that, but today we were talking during dinner, and once again she gives the "You'll meet boys your age" crap (I forget what about exsactly). God. It's infuriating and frustrating. What makes it all worse is that I'm not really interested in guys, but I don't have the guts to say it to my parents. I know they won't burn me or anything, but it's still saying it. I'm just entirely so sick of her telling me that I could meet guys at every god-damned event I could go to. Part of me wants to burst into her face and tell her that I'm not interested in guys and to shut the hell up about it, but then the other part of me is just "I can't do it!".
I've spoken about it to the few friends that know that I'm not really interested in guys that way, and they didn't really give me any advice or anything. Though one of them asked me if I had told my parents yet and as I told them no they said my face turned red.
My mom does the same thing to me and KNOWS I'm not into guys, but into girls. She has hopes of me marrying a guy and having kids and all. But, she covers it up with "Its against God". I'm fine with Christianity, but, don't force beliefs on me, you know?
She does it to me all the time and it drives me crazy =_=
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I Still Remember The Smile When You Tore Me Apart.
Though one of them asked me if I had told my parents yet and as I told them no they said my face turned red. 
