I get depressed start hating myself and everyone around me?
Why am I always destined to end up back in the same place?
Depressed, alone and contemplating the least physically painful way to die?
its like my life is a maze where all the paths lead back to the same place and no matter how far I walk I'll still be miserable.
Seems like the only way out is burning my life out in the most violent way possible
who would care? I know I wouldn't and that kinda scares me.
even if know one else does shouldn't I?
... I'd hate to live another year alone I don't think my poor heart could take it
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
I would be very sad if you were to end your life in the most violent way possible. I would be sad even if you ended your life in a peaceful way. Please don't. I do think you should care, if you honestly you cannot bring yourself to caring, then I shall take up the task for you. Draw me a sheep. Have you ever read "The Little Prince"? I know that seems like a stupid question to ask you, but, I think it is worth something anyway. I don't really know what to tell you, and I have most likely never met you in my life, and probably never will, but I still wish for you to be happy. Are you sure that you have never made progress? Never left from the place you started, not even a baby-step? What makes you so unhappy? It it only the feeling of being alone? ... Please explain what troubles you. I am not much of a therapist, but I care enough to try to consul. Tell me if there is anything I can do, I can at least listen.
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
A nutcase you say? No, you are a human being, you have feelings, blood flows through your veins, and you think. Right now you are not happy, this does not make you a nutcase. People often do not like getting involved when they know it could affect them. And you know as well as I, that there is something they can do. I know I'm not that helpful, look, keep your eyes open, you can find people that will do something. Call a hotline or a friend, go out for a run, pet a animal, I don't know what makes you happy, but you do. I think you are a good human being, just keep trying, the only thing I think I can do for you is talk, and listen. So tell me, is it people not reaching out, is it loneliness? Does it help you to talk about it? If so, do.
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it just stops me from pulling the trigger by keeping me sidetracked
well I'm done talking.
I'll show them all it was a mistake to isolate ME
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
one more day of the same old will be 23 years too many
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Don't do it, just please don't. Stop... Spend more time thinking, figuring out what is still good in the world. What still makes you happy, doesn't even matter what others think, please will you promise not to? Don't do now. I'm panicking, okay, please don't just don't. Don't. I don't want you to be gone. Not now. Stay, please.
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"The ships hung in the sky in much the same way that bricks don't."
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Are you only 23? ... I'm only 9 years your junior, and yet I don't want you to go yet. There is far more time, and I think you can find something that will let you bide your time, and let you enjoy yourself, and not make the many more years of life be the same old thing leading into the same places you have gone, but let you exspreince new things. And find something that makes you happy. There isn't just one thing that will make you happy. Losing one, let's you find another, just hang on, okay? If you're tired, go to sleep, don't kill yourself.
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"The ships hung in the sky in much the same way that bricks don't."
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Will you promise me please, that you won't, becuase soon, I must sleep, and if I think there is a chance that you will pull the trigger, I will not be able to. I am sorry. Just please, please, don't do it.
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relax... I used to have love for everything in this world... and no idea what to do with it
I believed that love could save this world if only we let it....
this song pretty much sums up my feelings for the world right now...
maybe I've been listening to it too much
either way I don't really plan on going anywhere. I'm just sick of this world and everyone in it
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
:'/ Now I have, I couldn't listen to it last night, I was too busy trying to sleep and not bother the other residents of the house, sorry. Interesting.
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Is ti really always pain? I feel sad about this, an WE DO CARE. We care what happens to you, and how you are. We unfortunately don't know you many other places - how you look, how you act on a daily basis. The first is not important, and the second is somthing we may not ever see, but WE STILL CARE ABOUT YOU. I may not know how to help you, but if there is anything, just tell me.
and its "unreasonable" and "selfish" for me to ask anyone to do it
all I can do is plead for help and hope someone cares enough to do so
but clearly no one does
who would be willing to uproot their own lives just to help me?
no one
its only reasonable because people don't care enough for it to be reasonable
would you do that even to save a life?
of course not!
-- Edited by Doc on Tuesday 1st of November 2011 10:25:05 PM
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No, I don't know. In many cases with patterns or clues or signs, I may not get the big picture or something that would be obvious to everyone else. Can you remember how long you have been depressed? Do you know anything about what caused it?
so the other kids picked on me no one ever stood up for me
I couldn't do it myself or things would just be worse
I can barely keep myself going let alone fight my own battles
now its the exact same situation
no one will help me make friends...
I cant do it myself and believe me I've tried
whats the point to scratching and clawing for every step of ground when I cant hold onto it for more than a day
so yeah my whole life is a wash I should just end it and be done
do you understand my pain? my isolation? can anyone else even begin to understand how another feels?
-- Edited by Doc on Tuesday 1st of November 2011 10:40:10 PM
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I know somethimg about being socially isolated. They only picked on me for god knows what reason, but it still hurts. No matter how they justify it, it still hurts as hell. Some people are asses, I know. Why should anything be a 'reason' to pick on anyone? I can't say I know exactly what you're going through, because every fight and every person is different, but I can try to understand, that is the least I can do.
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
No, you're not an idiot. I find you to be friendly and intelligent, more so than most people I've met throughout life. Please don't feel unnecessary or unwanted, because you are not. The idiots who're bad to you have failed to see those sides of you, and that's a shame because they could have gained a lot while you had gotten one less bully for each of them who saw this. Don't listen to anyone who may say you're worthless because you're not. Do you know the saying 'To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may mean the world'? I think it is a great saying, because it is so true in that there's always someone who loves you and cares about you.
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Can you not think of one person who cares about you? We here at the forum do. We care for your well-being and yes, we would be sad if you were to leave this way. But is there noone where you live?
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
T-T after a while people just ignore me... and all returns to black
also heres my problem with online services like CL
EVERYONE ON THERE IS A JERK
E-V-E-R-Y-O-N-E
-- Edited by Doc on Saturday 5th of November 2011 05:37:23 PM
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
I guess people are jerks sometimes, are CLs like dating sites? how was life for you today? Are there any other songs you would like to share? We're always here to listen.
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Aww. =/ I'm quite aware that this might sound stupid, but is there any park or natural area where you live? I don't know how active your daily life is, but moving your body and keeping it in some action as opposed to not moving around much actually affects happiness. Also, the fresh air does everyone good.
Was your day really that terrible? I'm unfortunately running low on advice right now, but physical activity does help. *hugs*
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
just because you work hard doesn't mean you'll get anywhere
this isn't a fairytale its reality
reality is crude and dark it leads only to suffering as long as you live
-- Edited by Doc on Wednesday 9th of November 2011 04:04:15 PM
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Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
I know reality can be cruel and awful, but that doesn't mean that nothing good exists. The hardest thing is to find it. Some are lucky, some, unfortunately, are not. that is the truth of life, I think.
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