I haven't been here in 2 weeks or so, but i kinda need help.
I have a girlfriend, who i've been with for 9 months, but she's on the verge of suicide. I tried to be with her 24/7 but it aint helping.
Yesterday i went to her house and nobody was home. It was weird because she called me 5 minutes ago so i was worried. I looked under the mat of there house and found a key. (People still do that here in holland) went in and found it very hot in there house. The first thing that got my eye was her bag of school and her phone. And then i heard the shower running. I called her name but no respond was returned. So i went upstairs and opened the door of the bathroom and saw her laying there, in the middle of the room with her wrist slit. I called 911 and tried stopping the blood as well.
By the time the ambulance came she was so cold that i thought she died. I didt'n cry the whole time but when my mom and dad came and hold me, i cried.
But here's the thing, she wont talk too her parent and there blaming me. They cant handle that the daughter is gay and been ignoring that fact for 2 years when she came out. She, however, wont talk too me either because she blames me for saving her. She needs too stay in the hospital for another 3 days and then she goes home again. Where her mother hates me and her father wants too kill me.
I need help. I need too break her shield and let her trust me again. My parents told me that she can move in our home and stay here untill we find a home for us both. God, i love them so much.
So if anybody got a idea too help me, please do
Gusso
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Nami, I love you. And i will die if you tell me to" Nami giggles. "Your already death silly, so it aint fair if you cant keep your promiss"
Before we can help, we need to know the source of all of this. Why is she suicidal? By the way you described it, her parents are at fault, but I don't want to judge this too quickly.
Gusso... I wish I could say some magic thing to help you. I really do. Helping people with big problems like this is kind of what I do. But... she needs professional help. Quickly.
Most attempted suicides are done where the person will be found quickly, but the way you described it, she was alone and did it in a tub. That's a sign she was serious about wanting to die (I hate to start sounding clinical... but women serious about suicide often do it in a tub because it's easier cleanup for the people left behind).
I don't think there's much anyone here can tell you other than the obvious. Stay with her, make sure she knows you're there and that you love her, make sure she doesn't try to hurt herself again. Make sure she sees a mental health professional as soon as she's able.
Also... try not to think too poorly of her parents. They're not likely to be kind to you right now, but they're terrified by the fact they almost lost their daughter. You just happen to be the easiest outlet for their anger and fear and frustration. You're someone they can point at and say "it's your fault" so they don't have to deal with the reality that they contributed to the problem. In that regard... I think the best thing you can do is make it clear to them how strongly you feel for their daughter and that you plan to be there to support her until she's better.
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Well, her parents do blame me, hate me and want to kill me. So i guess there scared too but they dont have too point it out on me.
Samantha, my girlfriend is seeing someone and i'm really happy about it. Normally i can handle these things, but for some reason i just cant. My boss gave me a 2 weeks off work, so i can be with. But i cant do nothing, i cant talk, hold or kiss her and tell her that everything will be oke. Because she and her parents wont let me.
Yesterday wen she was in the hospital my dad, who i love, punch her dad in the face because he allmost wanted too hit me. Now i'm on the verge of going insane because i need too see her and ask her why she wanted too kill herself.
My mom is going today with my little brother, trying to figure out why she wont talk to me.
My friend tell me i should dump her and leave her to her parents. Should i??
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Nami, I love you. And i will die if you tell me to" Nami giggles. "Your already death silly, so it aint fair if you cant keep your promiss"
I'm an ex-suicidal. My ex-girlfriend and friends pulled me out of it. The reason I did it was because I didn't think anyone cared. Everything was crashing down on me. "How much easier would this be for me if I didn't exist?" And not existing translated into death.
All I wanted was to know that someone cared and that it was going to get better. I didn't want to be in this shallow pit of wallowing in my sorrow with people always asking me if I was okay. I wanted to be normal again and laugh too.
I don't know her story, so I can't really give you much advice but make sure she KNOWS you love her. Don't just tell her that, prove it. Try and make her smile again, make her feel alive again, that maybe life does have a reason.
If you can't see her, then slip her a note. Or, call her even. Just anything to let her know that you love her.
If you need to talk, PM me and I'll give you my AIM, MSN or Yahell.
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That's not the easiest situation you're facing here ... maybe I should just let the other talk since they all sound very right, but if i was facing something i can't handle, i'll want to know everyone point of view. So there is mine. Sora Sakura and Nobody are right. She need something to stop hurting herself. Knowing some care about her so much should be enough, so you have to tell her in every possible ways. Don't blame her parents too, as knowing their child wants to die must be the worst thing ever. They surely don't think as usual. In fact you should just forget about them till your girlfriend is out of danger. And try to gather every information about her and why she wants to die. I know you probably want a solution now and withut losing any time, but it is important matter, you can't just rush things. And you asked if you should listen to your friend and dump her : you can't. I know it's easy for me to say that as i'm not you and enduring your pain, but you can't. Because you wouldn't be here, asking for help, if you didn't care about her. She's having hard times, and needs help. You'll hate yourself for the rest of your life if you just flee now. But it's not why you can't. You have to stay because you love her. It's too rare, yes believe me, it's very too rare to just turn your back on her.
I really hope things will get better. I wish i could do anything to help. Let me know if i can, and don't lose hope.
She allmost killed herself because of me... The reason is
I love her more than anyone did in her life. When i started too hang out with her, she had a crush on me and i return her favor by kissing her. Because i love her she killed suicide.
She is afraid because she thinks nobody loves her and she thinks i love her out of pity. Thats what my mom said. She did it because she thought nobody loved her and that it will be the easy way out.
God i hate myself right now. Im going tommorow to the hospital and i dont now what too say to her. And yeah, SORA i will like you MSN so i can talk to ya, maybe help me too.
Thanks for the support guys, i really appreciate it, i really do
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Nami, I love you. And i will die if you tell me to" Nami giggles. "Your already death silly, so it aint fair if you cant keep your promiss"
Okay... now that I know why she did it... there's only one thing you can do. You have to prove her wrong.
You need to go to her and make it clear that you really do love her, not because of pity, but because she's her and she's who you want to be with. Let her know how scared you were at the idea of losing her to this... let her know what you have is the real thing.
It's... hard to explain this kind of thing. It's hard to give advice on how to express yourself because everyone is different. But she needs to hear how you really feel, deep down inside... you need to let her know she was wrong.
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I talked too her and i showed her that she is not alone. I was willing too offer her free time alone, so that she can think it over by herself but she said that she needed my help and i said yes. I could't do it alone, my friends helped me and my family as well. But you guys helped me aswell and i really, really love you guys. Dont now ya, but i feel like i can talk here.
So heres to you guys. And it a long way for her and myself but i gonna make her smile again
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Nami, I love you. And i will die if you tell me to" Nami giggles. "Your already death silly, so it aint fair if you cant keep your promiss"
I know it's not much and I'm not an expert on the area but at least I have this tidbit that a well renowned local psycho therapist gave me, he said "I have never in all my years working the field come across a single individual who lived to regret the day that they failed to take their own life."
It may sound a bit odd but what he means is that no one who tries to commit suicide but fails ever regrets the decision to live on. It can be sooo hard to make someone so depressed believe this, but if you believe this Gusso then you will know that things can and will get better. So good luck to you two!
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I'm not that great with stuff like this, like HexElf, but from what I read, everyone's right. They're all good points of adive to such a situation, and though I wish I could have helped somehow, I do wish you and your girlfriend the best of luck in life, and hope things will improve in due time. By the way, have a merry christmas, and a happy new year.
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