One I cared for deeply - loved with all my heart has left me.
The pain of someone loving you one moment then not the next
is unbearable
I'm sad I will never see you again dear friends
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That little tilde on the end of the "ello" you gave me seemed so happy... that punctuation mislead me, I think.
I wish I could find something useful to say in this situation. I guess I could comment on how you said "loved". Even if you feel like this person doesn't love you anymore, hopefully you still have a reason to love them. Don't let it be loss for you on both sides. If I'm just attacking the past tense for no reason, ignore that... please.
Otherwise, I can't understand the pain. I never could. You shouldn't have to dwell on it though, especially never alone. Which I hope is why you showed up here, to at least talk to some people, who as far as I can tell at this point, care about you. I just hope someone that knows you well enough can help sooner, rather than later.
As for that last line, I can only hope that I'm reading it wrong. I definitely don't like what it could represent. Just don't do anything rash... and talk to someone, if anything... to vent and complain.
So. Sorry, and I hope you get through this in one piece.
I still love my sofia-chan.... she just saved me from another suicide attempt.... said she'd give it another go if I stopped
I don't know what to do.....
-- Edited by Doc at 06:12, 2008-10-05
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I guess the word "Smile" wouldn't do you any good right now...
Obviously she cares enough about you, and maybe that love had never stopped to begin with. So just promise her that you'll never react like that, and promise that you won't break that promise. No breaking promises to people you love, remember that.
Anger, Jealousy, Loneliness, these are the emotions that consume ones heart and destroy ones soul, my heart cannot soar for it is eternally wingless...
im a little worried after reading this post and that is something i dont do a lot so is there a reason to worry or did i missinterpret something and theres no reason to worry ??
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I'm fine really I think sofia and I are just a little screwed up right now
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Sofia left me for her ex and now... I don't know what...
I'm so confused......
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I swear at this rate I'll just go back into isolation
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yeah I think i'll just shut down and stay offline for a couple weeks
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I can't see how forcing boredom on yourself could actually make you feel better. I always thought that managing pain was about distraction... that or drugs, but let's not go there. Don't try isolation when you're already feeling bad, it'll just become one long introspection on pain and sadness.
i think i agree with Mimic isolation will probably only make you feel worse but i dont think distraction is a good way to deal with pain well it is if its physical pain otherwise i think youll have to find a way to get over it. distraction is good for putting the pain of till you find a way to deal with it
ooh and Mimic i think Drugs would be a form of distraction though i dont reccomend it.
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Well I have no idea what the hell I'm gonna do then
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Well I have no idea what the hell I'm gonna do then
A few suggestions: If you can, talk to somebody you trust, whether in person or online: it will help you to make sense of things. Talk about or look at something unrelated to your problems, for a while: it may not help you feel good, but ir may help you feel less bad for a while, and may give your subconscious a chance to work on things. Also, some things just take time: time for things to change again, time to figure things out, whatever. While spending some time by yourself thinking things out makes sense, doing this and nothing else can be counterproductive.
I just hope this helps: I'm no expert, but I have had some experiences that may not be completely irrelevant, albeit with a somewhat different source for the problems.
I decided to block her for a while and sort things out for myself
it appears to be my only option
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To be honest I just want to get past this and move on
I still have a lot of anger to deal with most of it directed at myself but that can easily be added to the pile of things I still need to work out.
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